happy birthday mum.

 

i used to watch you and all your girlfriends

sitting around our kitchen table

laughing telling stories drinking tea

and i remember thinking

"i can't wait till i grow up to be just like you"

i remember your laugh

it would echo through the house

and my sister and i would look at each other

and laugh to

i remember Christmas presents

my first crochet bikini,the bucks fizz tape and the sweet valley high books

i remember you dressing my sister and i in matching outfits

with spots and strips and socks to match

and i won my first dancing competition and you were screaming

i remember watching prisoner with you

we were to young but you would let us stay up

and i remember how well you and dad could through a party

and we would watch the adults dance all night

from the top of the stairs

i remember your susie wong shoes

your coconut oil sun baking sessions

the way you would stand on one leg on the phone

with you other one tucked up like a stork

we would imitate you

i remember the smell of clean school uniforms

lettuce and tomato sandwiches when i was sick

and so many other wonderful things.

mum.

and i have missed your birthday again.

and i wasn't be there to bring you lilies and cook you dinner

but i thought of you all day.

happy birthday mum.

i love you very much.x